i was only joking when i said i'd like to smash every tooth in your head

this is all just fucked up. i'm tired of hearing grown up people feeling sorry for themselves and making me feel like it's all my fault. it's fucking frustrating and immature and i'm so sick of it.


i just want to run away, somewhere far where i wouldn't be anyone's problem. i've always been put in between others' problems and being made to choose sides. but what fucking sides? i don't really understand what i should be doing.

and i get this feeling that i shouldn't even be thinking about this, that there really is nothing i should be doing about this. that i shouldn't even be in this whole situation anymore.

and in the end it's all about money. only money. i wish we'd all be either stinking rich or just average. without any large gaps between peoples incomes and wealth.